Rocking boat

I'm not expecting my life to have to face this sort of situation.. I was happy then, but not now.. it's a rocking boat of my life..I want to stay strong.. be tough.. Sh*t i don't think i can.. relationship with lies.. i'm not sure if i can survive...he keep promising he will never ever hurt me.. does he really mean it???

It's expected but can we accept the fact?

Yesterday quite a shocking day... The boat that i've already left is sinking... just like a time bomb.. waiting.. to sink to the bottom of the sea...Not so sure about the boat that I'm in now.. the sea is ferocious.. eager to swallow any boat.. my fellow friend... my dear friend.. became one of the victim.. I hope she can hanging on to the piece... hope she have the life saver jacket.. I'm not sure how to console her about the situation she's dealing now...hope this will not devastated her..

In this crazy life, through ths crazy time...I just wish for better world to live in... chaos every where.. It's not just about gloomy economy...people get retrenched...you just wished you will not be the part of the programme.. hanging to your job like never before... at the end of the day u eagerly want to go home and have peace in yor mind.. while the next day.. when u step out u'll start to worry about ur future..again... and the cycle will not stop till you gain financial freedom..

Wondering mind

Well... It has been quite some time since my last entry..I was busy adjusting my life when we decided to move few months back. A lot has happened since then.. world economy looks gloomy, my job is not quite as I expected to be, any work place is affected well I think my decision to jump to another ship is not that bad.. My hubby got quite a promising job i guess.. & it's a relief for both of us..Syukur...
Any how, as 2008 left us... I'm not sure what to expect this year for my career.. Am I going to jump ship again? I was thinking about it.. but.. my plan is not about changing career exactly, I'm more intrested in pursuing my study..I had shown my hubby the pamphlet given by a colleague..He seem to approve..I'm not sure if my budget allowing me to pursue study..well there' something to think about.. I realized that I'm not an organized person..sometimes I just follow my hunch to do something..u can say that plan to pursue study might take some time to realize it..